selfish?

I havent updated this in a while.. I was reading my post about "love"..and I'm feeling the total opposite right now. Don't get me wrong, I want that love..those arguments.. but I think I like the idea of that more than the actual thing. Im a big ball of confusion when I actually think about it though. I admit, I DON'T know what I really want, but then sometimes I do know..*shrugs* I blame it on all these love songs nshit -_- but anyways, at this point in time, my main focus is strictly school. Relationships just seem to ...not so much "get in the way" but, it takes my focus off that. I feel that I'm too young right now to be worrying about someone else. Furthermore, I'm too confused and lost in this world as it is, I barely know myself..I can barely please myself..how am I suppose to make someone else happy? How am i supposed try to figure someone else out when I don't fully know myself? Ya'll feel me? So, right now, I'm just doing me..I may talk to someone here and then, but that serious mess..right now? No, thanks. Idk though. Am i being selfish to only think of me and my future when it comes to that relationship shit? Well, if it's being selfish then damnit, I'm selfish. More so ambitious though. I have so many goals that I will accomplish..and I refuse to let anything or anybody take my mind and focus from that. eh, enough for now.