After crying my eyes out...I figure I'd write a blog...
I'm at a place in my life that I guess everyone experiences at one point in time. I feel so alone.."friends" who are suppose to be here aren't, I have NO significant other to share my thoughts with and be comforted by. Just noone. And the only thing, besides God, that I truly fear is being alone. I haven't hung or really talked to my best friends in months..and why??? Some people say you realize who your true friends are and that you have to let some people go, but I never thought I'd be this alone ; I thought I would at least have that ONE friend (excluding my brothers) who would be there.. You would think I'd be the happiest person because of the things I have ...but all that amounts to absolutely nothing ; behind that smile you see is a total mystery. I guess this is good someone since everything happens for a reason, but I just can't see how right now...I feel so damn crazy because one minute I'm okay...and the next, as time goes by and I realize how lonely I am, I'm a wreck.... Smh...maybe I just need to use this time to figure out who I am..
This same feeling came over me not too long ago, but i really doubt you will be alone forever kimmie :)...the time you spend alone is time you can use to learn about yourself, and deep thought is always a good thing...chin up and optimistic thoughts help that out...."friends" will come and go especially now that you've graduated...who i thought was my best friend gets at me once a blue moon, from highschool i prolly got like 2 good friends left thats why i try to look forward and not back...well guess im just kinda venting not really much help huh?, and im sure youre tired of hearing "keep your head up" but keep your head up lol there is always that light at the end of the tunnel
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